Dee's Space

"Can You" or "Hope" by Duncan McCulloch Can you take your hands off my eyes I'd like to see, clear blue sky These days my minds been foggy inside Can you make me feel like I'm alive. Light at the end of my tunnel, is there anything there? Hope for the futures, live a live without care Sinkin' in quicksand, to scared to dare Clean up the wound, suture the tear. She will be beautiful, in so many ways I will be happy, day after day Is this a dream, Hope this comes true I'd really like to be with you. Holding on to the rope Holding on to hope Holding on to the past But i'll let it go. Can you take this off my mind I'd like to be flyng through the sky I want you, to stop the crying inside Can you help me to be more alive. I"m sure everything will be okay This mental rain, must end, there will be a sunny day I'm just going to keep on my way If this is who I am, I shall not sway.

Slave by Duncan McCulloch Forget about me, I'll forget about you. Erase the memory, everything you knew. Cut through the vein, constant blood flow. That would will scar, but you Reap what you sow. Whip through the bush, thorns ripping through the skin. Pain sensations, like being peirced with pins. Your lifes been going down the drain. Change who you are, but your still the same. You'll never fool me with your games and tricks. Everyday your making your grave bigger, soon you'll fit. People trying to be different, but your all the same. and Everyday theres something crazy going on, everyones going insane. You may be free, but where will you go. Served the time, far from innocent, stooped nice and low. You never know in what direction you are headed. Lost in the maze of life, the curse is embedded. Your Just a Slave to the pain that you've got yourself into. And thats how it will always be. Take your hands off your eyes So you can finally see Remove the gag, I'll let you breath. Cut you with a knife, allow you to bleed.

My cat died.. well my sisters cat... "Cruiser" he wasn't even old, he was only 2 years old.... so I am probally taking him in for an Autopsy. Im guessing a Myocardial Infarction (heart attack) or maybe a stroke.. because as far as I know he did not have any symptoms or illness.. and he seemed fine yesterday before he just died...maybe he had liver failure or something.. ... it just sucks because he was getting nicer, and wasn't rough anymore really... I might be getting a Kitten.. so will have to see... on a better note... i got 2 scrubs yesterday.. (the outfits doctors, Vets, and healthcare workers wear..) a Green one, and a Black one.. the school pays for one, but if you want more then 1, you have to buy it yourself.. but anyways.. that was pretty cool... well im off... i might write in this ol' thing again in a little while.. -Dee-

Marital Status] Single [Shoe size] 11 i think,.. sometimes 10 [Parents still together] Yea [Siblings]sister-Jennifer..23 or 24 or something [Pets] Lots..2dogs 2 cats 2 birds 1 guinea pig 3 Tarantulas.. FAVORITES [Color] Lots.. black is always good [Number] none.. [Animal] probally dogs.. [Drinks] Beer [Soda] Any [Book] A few.. [Flower] Lillys DO YOU [Color your hair?] did once or twice.. i need to again... [Twirl your hair?] not usually [Have tattoos?] Nope.. [Have Piercings?] yep, 2 [Cheat on tests/homework?] lol.. not seriously.. [Drink/Smoke?] yep [Like roller coasters?] No [Wish you could live somewhere else?] yea... or be someone else.. [Want more piercings?] kindof [Like cleaning?] Sometimes [Write in cursive or print?] Print [Own a web cam?]yea [Know how to drive?] Yes [Own a cell phone?] Yes [Ever get off the damn computer?] sometimes.. lol.. when im not working,going to school, getting drunk, etc.. HAVE U EVER [Been in a fist fight?] Yes [Considered a life of crime?] not really so much a life.. but doing crime yea.. [Considered being a hooker?]fuck that.. dont need clemetia [Lied to someone?] Yes [Been in love?] Yea.. [Made out with JUST a friend?] Yes [Been in lust?] not really..lust is for suckers [Used someone] not really.. [Been used?] lots of times.. [Been cheated on?] dunno.. probally.. [Kicked someone in the nuts?] Yes [Stolen anything?] lots of times.. [Held a gun] yea quite a few times CURRENTS [Current clothing] Pj's :) cuz im l337 [Current mood] Shitty [Current taste] gross mouth [What you currently smell like] like washed? [Current hair] shaggy hair [Current thing I ought to be doing] getting smashed.. [Current cd in stereo] none.. listened to Kiyoshi Nagata a couple times today.. [Last book you read] ummm... Coral Island i think [Last movie you saw] hmm.. i forget.. [Last thing you ate] dunno [Last person you talked to on the phone] who knows.,, [Do drugs?] just some.. [Believe there is life on other planets?] yep Remember your first love?] yea... [Still love him/her?] sure.. [Read the newspaper?] no.. news is depressing.. [Have any gay or lesbian friends?] don't think so.. [Believe in miracles?] No.. obviously not.. [Do well in school?] yea now i do... [Wear hats] not usually.. [Hate yourself?] yea.. sometimes.. [Have an obsession?] not really [Collect anything?] not really.. [Have a best friend?] no.. [Close friends?] A few [Like your handwriting?] no.. i write messy.. i can barely even write ...

Theres nothing left for me here.. lying in bed, my eyes begin to tear.. If suicide is the easy way out, then what is the normal way out? It would be nice if you ever thought, thought of anything that has anything, anything to do with the likes of me.. Your to busy, doing drugs, getting drunk, and so much more, to forget about me.. I just wanted you as part of my life... I wish I could just leave this town sometimes.. but, would that make things any better? My few friends are one of the only things, that make me happy.. I wish i got drunk more.. sad to say, but its the only thing that helps, is when im with friends.. or my minds busy.. so im not thinking about how shitty my life is.. hmm.. well... i better go watch tv.. maybe that will cheer me up.. i wish someone was proud of how well im doing in school.. before you would have been..... see you...all

Its All Over By Duncan McCulloch Wrote this a long time ago.. good song.. complete with lyrics and guitar ..Use P.M. as Desired... Intro (2x) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2--2 2 2-- 0 0--5-- 5 5 5 --0 0 -- 9-- 7 --------------------------------------------------------------- 2--2 2 2-- 0 0--3-- 3 3 3 --0 0 -- 7-- 5 --7--5--7--5------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------- 5 -3--5--3------------------------------------------------- Verse (4x) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2 2 -- 5 5 5 -- 9-- 7 --9------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2 2 -- 3 3 3 -- 7-- 5 --7------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When I Was A Child I Didn't know wrong from right Now I'm all grown up and this shit will end tonight I don't know, why, or when but this is going to be the end Chorus (4x) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2--2 2-- 2 2 2---5--5 5 5 ---- ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 2--2 2-- 2 2 2---3--3 3 3 ---- 5--5--5---------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------- 3--3--3---------------------------------------------------------------- It's All Over This will be the end It's all over Won't see another day again Verse (4x) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2 2 -- 5 5 5 -- 9-- 7 --9------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2 2 -- 3 3 3 -- 7-- 5 --7------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Its almost your time Then you will be, a victim of crime If I was you, I'd get away You were a friend, but you betray Chorus (4x) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2--2 2-- 2 2 2---5--5 5 5 ---- ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 2--2 2-- 2 2 2---3--3 3 3 ---- 5--5--5---------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------- 3--3--3---------------------------------------------------------------- It's All Over This will be the end It's all over Won't see another day again Bridge (play a few times) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 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3--3--3---------------------------------------------------------------- It's All Over This will be the end It's all over Won't see another day again Verse (3x) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2--2 -- 2 2 2---2 2 2---5 5 --------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2--2 -- 2 2 2---2 2 2---3 3-- -5-5-------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------- 3-3-------------------------------------------------------------------- YOU BETRAY! 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"Lost" by Duncan McCulloch November 19/05 I am so lost, I've never been so confused I don't know what to think, do, or feel and all I think about is you. Through All of this, I lost more then myself I lost everything I ever knew I miss everything, but mostly me and you I must look to the future, There lies my salvation. Although I am forever scarred, Hopefully I'll always have you The memories will always be there Accompanied by the pain, What value is life, if this is what I gain. A life of tears, and no one calling out my name I need someone to hold, or for things to be alright I've never felt this bad, in my entire life Love is the greatest feeling in the world, but it can also hurt like hell You say you care and that you worry but where are you now? Often I sleep to waste more of the day Hoping as the days go by, that this suffering will go away. I will not give up, I will do what I was told to do. Carrying on is so hard, when theres no love from you Now its time to sleep, to bring forth a new day Hopefully it is alot better, alot better then today.