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1月25日 Face Down - Duncan McCulloch"Face Down" by Duncan McCulloch (written in 2005) Summer Probally..
Do I even exist?
Am I a Spirit Here?
Hearts grasped by a fist
Body full of fear.
Living a Life I hate
I'm always alone
Out of hope and doubting fate
Want my happiness back, want to go home.
I need you in my life some how
This is not how it should be
What to do, how do I feel now?
Things arent alright without Cassandra Lee.
Sinking in the ocean
and to Tired to swim
Hearts Full of devotion
but I'm being drowned, or torn apart from limb by limb.
I was someone with you
and now I'm back to nothing
What I say is the truth and my feelings are always true
Cut me up good, because I want to feel the sting.
Numb From All The Pain
You say you care about me
But seems you just care about you
With heart comes a key
Cannot be fixed by glue.
Broken, Tattered, and Torn
Good days are a few
If only new happiness was born
Always devoted to you.
Left in a trail of change
Face down in the mud
In the aim of a gun, but just out of range
One step forward, and i'm lieing in my blood.
Holding on to thoughts and dreams
Going back to when your words were true
Like the innocent, go through killers schemes
Feeling so empty, I thought you would have knew
Hurts to read things you wrote
Or to think of things you say
Your biting again at my throat
Don't want to feel like this today.
Things should go back to way they were
Back to when things were good
Thinking of when I met her
Remembering like I should. 1月10日 "Pain is Me(Suffering Is You)" by Duncan McCullochPain Is Me, (Suffering Is You)
By
Duncan McCulloch
Written - Jan 3/2006
Rip my soul right out of me
Cut my throat to watch me bleed
Gouge out your eyes so you can't see
Then stab you in the back like you did to me
So Ill see you in hell
Like a witch you cast a spell
Your death is my reward
From Death's Scythe you will be gored
Pain is Me
Suffering Is You
Pain is Me
Suffering Is You
Life is Pain
Covered with bloodstains
Never Again
Your sorrow is your fate
I'm Insane
Throw you through the window pane Bleeding from the start
Killing is an art
Remove the limbs first
Been doomed to hell from birth
Pain is Me
Suffering is You
Pain is Me
Suffering is You
I'll see you in hell
Into the lake of fire you fell
Your identity none can tell
Were now free from your spells
DIE WITCH DIE
PAIN IS ME
SUFFERING
IS
YOU
1月1日 New Year, Any Better?---------------------------------------------------- If anything should happen to me, I'd like you to have my book, with all my poems and songs. Then I would like you to make copies of them, and give them to my parents and family. ---------------------------------------------------- So its 2006, a new year.. i not only want it to be a million times better then 2005 I NEED IT TO BE I hate my life, Its not fair that other people are fuckin' idiots, and they get to be happy, and be in love, and not get their heart stepped on, and a scar formed, which I think im doomed to always feel I made mistakes but my heart is true being human does not mean i should be going through all this I see people changing and fading, losing their true identities and it makes my life worse The world has forsaken, and shakin' the life out of me Well... I hope everyones New Years was good im hungover, my head is pissin me off but the night was good enough Best Wishes For 2006 Please if there is any hope for me, Bring Me Some Happiness and lift this pain and sorrow that is embedded in me 12月24日 "Christmas" by DM"Christmas"
By: Duncan Mc Culloch Christmas used to be my favorite time of year
But now, I'll be washing my sorrows away with beer Being alone, is the worst feeling I think Just leave me be, just let me fuckin' sink. Family is all split up, I'm so lost in the mix up
Christmas is about love, but where is mine ? Forget about me, thats alright, I'll be fine Each year its always getting worse, Its like a curse Grab your fuckin' present, you open yours first. Coming together for Christmas, thats where its at
Eating so much over the break, people get fat I can't do this anymore, why do we all do this for ? We all don't get enough presents, we always want more. I just want to feel some love
Not looking for faith from above I want to feel something in my heart I'm always stuck at the start Living a life that I hate
Am I doomed to this fate ? Will the new year be the same ? God damn things never change. Were looking for more possessions
Not me, Happiness is what im stressin' Suppose to be my friends, but where you be Wanted you to spend some of Christmas with me. Christmas is the worst, just pass already
Gun to your head, Don't you throw that confetti What are you bitchin' about ? didn't get a Xbox 360 ? Or wait, you only got Three Hundred and Fifty? I don't want anything, but to not feel so dead
Tired of being alone, need someone with me in bed You think you have it bad ?, try feeling like this I don't mean for a few days, try months, you bitch! Christmas used to be my favorite time of year
Used to like it as much as hicks love deers I just want to have somebody to hold Winter fuckin' sucks !, its to damn cold ! Fuck Christmas ! Fuck Jolly Saint Nick !
Christmas can suck on my fat fuckin' dick ! You ate the whole box of chocolates ? you make me sick Heres a knife, Please, On my Neck, Make a slit If this new years better, I'll kiss your shoes No, Even better then that, I'll pay all your dues This Christmas, I'll just stay in my bed Christmas doesn't bring happiness, for me its dead. 12月18日 Korn - Alone I BreakAlone I Break by Korn
Pick me up Been bleeding too long Right here, right now I’ll stop it somehow I will make it go away Can’t be here no more Seems this is the only way I will soon be gone These feelings will be gone These feelings will be gone Now I see the times they changed Leaving doesn’t seem so strange I am hoping I can find Where to leave my hurt behind All the shit I seem to take All alone I seem to break I have lived the best I can Does this make me not a man? Shut me off I’m ready Heart stops I stand alone Can’t be on my own I will make it go away Can’t be here no more Seems this is the only way I will soon be gone These feelings will be gone These feelings will be gone Now I see the times they changed Leaving doesn’t seem so strange I am hoping I can find Where to leave my hurt behind All the shit I seem to take All alone I seem to break I have lived the best I can Does this make me not a man? Am I going to leave this place? What is it I’m running from? Is there nothing more to come? (am I gonna leave this place? ) Is it always black in space? Am I going to take it’s place? Am I going to win this race? (am I going to win this race? ) I guess god’s up in this place What is it that I’ve become? Is there something more to come? More to come... Now I see the times they changed Leaving doesn’t seem so strange I am hoping I can find Where to leave my hurt behind All the shit I seem to take All alone I seem to break I have lived the best I can Does this make me not a man? (x2) 12月17日 Eyelids Full Of TearsEyelids Full Of Tears
When I Close My Eyes, My Eyelids Fill With Tears I Hate My Life I Want to Be Happy People probally think that all this is sappy Well guess what? ive been dead all my life But when I was with you, i felt alive Now that i'm alone, with no one to make things right I lay alone, every single night Its hard to handle, how you are now But your still strong in my heart And You Always will be Its not that same, when your not with me Comparing You To everyone else Feeling dissapointment within my self I close my eyes again, the lids fill with wet i wont die, i wont give up, not yet 12月10日 Feelings by Duncan McCulloch"Feelings"
By Duncan McCulloch I Don't think my feelings will ever change
Mixed up heart, it needs to be rearranged Its been quite a while, some find that strange I'm still alive, but I feel beat up and manged When we spend time together, it helps me stay sane
But it also, makes hundreds of thoughts come from my brain Through the faults, all your beauty shines through My miserable life would be a million times worse without you When you hang out with me, over everyone else
When you're next to me, pretty much alone in my house Alot of things hurt me, but I'll see this through Holding on is so much easier, when I have you Thinking about everything, things we used to do
Why do I write these things, you probally already knew How I feel, writing my emotions down, like things artists drew What I say, means what I say, my words are true I don't feel right, I feel so confused
Rarely feel untouchable, always feel bruised These feelings are killing me, the bomb inside me needs diffused I hope you really do care about me, I don't want to be used I need you now, I Need you forever
I want to have a son with you, remember? named trevor I'm not like alot of guys, who will take whomever I hope happiness is coming soon, but i'll never say never I am always tired and my body too
Is this a Dream or Reality? I don't care about your bisexuality I'm being blown around, or knocked out by the flu My car broke down, but you were with me
I miss when things were perfect, and I was called Dee Spilling out my feelings, does anyone hear my plea? I remember when we got engaged, went down on one knee I don't want to write no more, I Don't want to feel
I don't want to die, I want my wounds to heal This is not a stupid poem, my feelings for you are real I want to be with you, my feelings I won't conceal Well this poem goes outs to Cassandra Lee Davis Fawcett Without your friendship, by now I would have lost it For the arrow has made a perfect hit Please don't ever leave me, because I know I'll never quit 12月8日 Our WorldOur World
By Duncan Ross Buckley McCulloch
We live in a world of hate
You turn it all around, but its to late
Millions spent on bombs, when theres starving children
Your a sinner, but now your forvgivin'
Perfect paradise turned to shit before your eyes
Gaining more weight, supersize those fries
Room on the raft, but keep them sinkin'
Shoot 'em' in the head, to stop 'em' from thinkin'
Let Killers loose, don't let innocent free
Smirks on their faces, their full of glee
People killing themselves because no one cares
Can't afford noting, to high fares
People driving like shit, but blame the weed
Allowed to drive, but they cant read
Take your hands off your eyes, now you can see
Say you've changed but a liar you be
We are the future, does anyone care?
No future, with so much polution in the air
Everything, going down the drain
Waiting in the hospital, pass out from the pain
Religion full of hyprocrits, no one feels the shame
Everyones going for the money and the fame
Street violence, blame it on a game
Take it away, but everything stays the same
Pretend like you give a shit, your on the air
Caring about how people look, and what they wear
Someones in trouble, they walk right by
What comes around, goes around, knife in your eye
You can't do nothing right, don't even try
Your a fuckin' pussy man, Don't fuckin cry
Make up excuses, you can't state the facts
Price for everything, bills come in stacks
Paradise, turned to shit before my eyes
Planes are coming, better look up to the sky
Theres room here, but we wont let you in
Don't touch that, you don't know where its been
We live in a world of hate
We can turn it around, its not to late
Stop wasting money, and killing animals for leather
Atmosphere is all screwed up, constant changes in the weather
To much diseases, I can't keep track
Made an enemy,you better watch out for your back
Will things get better for us, should we believe in fate?
Everyone wants to go to Heaven, through the Pearly gate
We believe in things, we don't know are true
Oh, you looked at me funny, I'm gonna sure
Taking all the money they got
Can't walk alone at night, you will get shot
Don't judge people by the color of their skin
And your going to hell, because your full of sin
Speak your mind, let people know
THIS IS THE END, TIME TO GO
WE LIVE IN A WORLD OF HATE
TIME FOR CHANGES
BEFORE ITS TO LATE
"Our World"
By Duncan RB McCulloch
12月4日 Never Meant/When/Even though/Im Still Here I:
Never Meant To Hurt You
Never Meant Upset You
Never Meant To Make You Cry
Never Meant To Make You Stop Loving Me
Never Meant For You to Distance from Me
Never Meant To Lose You
Never Meant For Anyof this
I really can see everything in your eyes
the pain, the sadness, and the confusion
Did you read my other songs
or just the one that was intense
expression through music but its still just music
words are words.. and my feelings are my feelings
when i say I care I care
when i say i hurt, i hurt
when i say i miss you, i miss you
when i say i need you, i need you
when i say i wanna die, i dont know what to do
when i cry, i hurt, really bad inside
when i see you cry, i cry to
even though you hurt me, im still here
even though you treat me this way, im still here
even though im dieing inside from all this, im still here
still have feelings for you, im still here
even though you've change, so have I
even though your different, im still here
i exept your faults and how your different
you mean alot to me, and that will never change
im sorry for anything i did to every hurt you
im sorry if i have emotions, or that i sometimes vent
im sorry for everything i ever did to make things worse
im sorry for any pain ive put you through
I Never Meant When I Said Mean things, Even Though I Hurt, And Im Still Here
Im Stilll Here...
.Y.I.M.H.F.E.
---- This Goes Out To You Cassandra Lee Davis Fawcett ----
without you.. id be nothing
---sorry again--- read my other songs/poems, that was the only intense one i ever did---
10月13日 Mudvayne - Cradle10月10日 What Its Like To Have You Here With Me..."Promise" What would you say if I asked you not to go To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me Would you take my hand and never let me go Promise me you'll never let me go And now the stars aren't out tonight, But neither are we to look up at them Why does hello feel like goodbye? These memories can't replace, These wishes I wished and dreams I chased Take this broken heart and make it right I feel like I lost everything when you're gone Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me I thought you should know, You're not making this easy I never thought I'd be the one to say Please don't, well please don't leave me I feel like I lost everything when you're gone Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me I thought you should know, You're not making this easy You're not making this easy (easy, easy, easy...) Take my hand and never let me go, Take my hand and never let me go, Promise me... You'll never let go You'll never let go You'll never let go You'll never let go Make this last forever I feel like I lost everything when you're gone Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me I thought you should know, You're not making this easy You're not making this easy You're not making this easy You're not making this easy You're not making this easy I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you 9月23日 Nothing In CommonCassie said we have nothing in common a couple days back , is this nothing???
BOTH: like girls music is an imortant part of our life like the same types of music Don't have living grandfathers like cars like going for drives like the country have cellphones with aliant have peircings like meeting new people use msn like our job paid 7$ or under like animals attending or going to attend college parents worked at D.O.T. when they were younger ( Department of Transportation ) have 1 sister work shift work smoke weed drink alcohol can play instruments like to sing when music is playing been to funerals lost family members confused right now care about eachother live in fredericton been through hard times like 4 wheeling , 3 wheeling like the outdoors going for walks had a farm in the family at one point in time lost someone they cared about lots of cd's had seamonkies have cheap dvd players have ideas of what we want in life think friends are important wear skateshoes been hurt many times lost friends care about other people besides just ourselves like art like getting gifts ( clothes even ) got engaged have our own cars fell in love for the first time , at the same time , with eachother made mistakes , or said things we shouldnt have have record players like dying our hair like being different (unique) have connect NB mousepads played in a band are poor have atleast 1 recreational vehicle like the same types of movies
have old dogs suffered from depression been in fights in school stole broke the law alot have some of the same cds wear a watch visited someone in the hospital been to the prom borrowed a dress or tux live away from family. like eating at restuarants or fast food joints have a pipe been to church failed classes in higschool went to small elementaries sing to the radio in the car or stereo in car applyed for college gotten free wallets have dogs theres alot more things .. but i gotta study for my exam.... i just wanted to show everyone that even when someone thinks u and them have nothing in common.. then thats bull.. because in like a half a hour.. i thought of that many things we had in common... 9月19日 good song.. relevant to my situation"Santa Monica" She fills my bed with gasoline You think I wouldn't notice Her mind's made up Her love is gone I think someone's trying to show us a sign That even if we thought it would last The moment would pass My bones will break and my heart would give Oh, it hurts to live And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything And I remember the time when you left for Santa Monica And I remember the day you told me it's over It hurts to breathe Well every time that you're not next to me Her mind's made up The girl is gone And now I'm forced to see I think I'm on my way Oh, it hurts to live today Oh and she says "Don't you wish you were dead like me?" And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything And I remember the time when you left for Santa Monica And I remember the day you told me it's over I wanted more than this I needed more than this I deserve more than this But it just won't stop It just won't go away I needed more than this I wanted more than this I asked for more than this But it just won't stop It just won't go away And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything And I remember the time when you left it all behind And I remember the day you told me it's over And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything And I remember the time when you left for Santa Monica Yeah, I remember the day you told me it's over 9月16日 whyWhy / My Conscience
By Duncan RB McCulloch Why Do You Bother , Why Do You Even Try
She doesn't care about you , and probally wouldnt care if you died she just uses you , and is trying to lose you Why do you try to go on , when theres no one for you you had your one chance , and you blew it I know you still love her , but she doesnt love you why do you even want to stay alive , when the sky soon won't be blue you sent her roses for her to think , but do you think she even kept them? this world is shit , and full of pain Things probally won't get better , i will never be the same its been three months , why dont you give up , Do you really think things will look up? shes moved on , she doesnt even want you in her life and your still waiting , wanting and needing her in your life. if you were suicidal , you would probally be already dead. what are you even thinking ? , what is going through your head?
she only talks to you , when she wants a drive or money? why do you put up with that , it isnt really funny. why dont you listen , when people tell you to give up well i guess , i might as well shuttup you wont listen to me , or anyone else i guess your doomed , to a life of hell you decided to keep living your broken life and broken dreams when she hugs and kisses you , she doesnt mean what you think go jump in a pool , let yourself sink let yourself go , she's all you think about i give up , your to damaged to be saved well im going to shuttup now , its not sinking in so just stop trying , you can't win you do everything you can for her , and she does not realize that you will always be there for her , often with tears in your eyes. she cuts you up , like a person cuts with razorblades im leaving you now , his voice begins to fade. your falling appart here , no one will come to your aid. go find a quiet grave , surrounded my shade 9月13日 bleh.. mehsometimes you hug me , makes me think you care...but when u kiss my check i know thats all it will ever be.. but then you only ask me to drive you to work and back home from work.. do you even care about me?... i wish someone would treat me good like a deserve for once... i even went to see jamie ( used to be my roomate) and hes supposively my friend.. and the first thing he said was " what are you doing? " so whatever im tired of caring about everyone.. no one gives the care back to me... i guess i just need to care about myself right now.. things dont feel right with me and cassie.. but maybe they never will.. she doesnt even talk to me anymore barely... tonight when i took her home from work.. when i was waiting my heart was beating out of my chest. well i wish things would look up for me.. i guess i dont feel that shitty like a used to... but i wish things would look up a little more.. whats wrong with me? what did i do to deserve all of this? how much longer must i suffer.. i didnt just lose the love of my life... i lost my bestfriend... and now jamie hates me , and i dont really see me finding anyone from school anytime soon.. i might as well give up on everything.. well im not a quitter.. but i just dont know whats wrong with me.. why doesnt anyone like me?,,, well im going to sleep.. i dont even know if ill get to see cassie tomorrow because i might have to take my dads sister to the SMT station to go back home.. oh well its not like she wants to hang out with me anyways.. she just wants a drive cuz shes broke... well if anyone reads this ..Hi... peace 9月10日 yea...yea... i havent been wrote an entry in like decades.. well cassie ( the ex) is treating me like i dont even exist , and she likes other guys... for like 3 months i felt like shit.. but now i feel alright... if she wants to forget about what we had before and how in love we were and how we could be again.. then whatever.. plus the guys she likes are definitley worse then me , and i know there has to be a girl that would be happy to have me , and would like me for who i am... well im going now... i dont even know why im posting on here.. its not like anyone gives a shit.. o well.. peace.. ps.. cassie u know i still love you.. but i guess that doesnt really matter to you.. 7月28日 "I KNOW" song by Duncan McCulloch.. w0ot" I Know " By Duncan Ross Buckley McCulloch
I Know You Don't Feel The Same
I Know That I Will Be Okay
I'm Sure I'll SEe you Someday
I Won't Let Myself Fade Away
....I Know.....
....I Know.....
- Bridge-
I Know You'll Be In My Heart Forever
I Know I'll Never Love Anyone Better
I Know Things Will Be Alright
I Always Dream Of You At Night
...I Know....
...I Know....
-Bridge-
I Know I Can Wait Forever
I Know I'll Never Find Anyone Better Then You
I Know You Still Love Me To I'll Never Give Up On You
...I Know...
...I Know...
...I Know...
_END_ 7月16日 rose of sharyn lyricsRose of Sharyn Lyrics -- Killswitch Engage Numb we're broken, Here I stand alone, Wondering what were The last words I said to you Hoping, praying that I'll find a way To turn back time, Can not turn back time? What would I give to behold. The smile the face of love, You never left me, The rising sun Will always speak your name. Numb and broken, Here I stand alone, Wondering what were The last words I said to you It won't be long We'll meet again... Rock What would I give (What would I give), to behold The smile, the face of love? You never left me (You Never Left Me) The rising sun Will always speak your name It won't be long, we'll meet again Your memory is never passing It won't be long, we'll meet again My love for you is everlasting. I mourn for those who never knew you I mourn (I mourn) for those (for those) who never knew you (who never knew you) It won't be long, we'll meet again Your memory is never passing It won't be long, we'll meet again My love for you is everlasting. It won't be long, we'll meet again.. It won't be long, we'll meet again.. It won't be long, we'll meet again.. It won't be long, we'll meet again.. 7月11日 lame poem i wrote for cassieuntitled
By Duncan McCulloch
Being with you is like the birds singing in the trees
Being without you is like being stung by bee's You Don't Realize how beautiful you really are , when I look at you I see a glowing star. Like a red rose surrounded by thorns Life is sometimes tough , since the day your born It May seem bad things always happen to you But Remember I'll always be here no matter what you do I will love you till the day I die love lasts forever , so can you and I Everytime i look into you eyes , I see a sunset in the sky. When were apart I think about you I almost start to cry.
and when you treat me bad
I feel like a could die.
So please think of me
and how i dried your eyes
how i was there to hold you ,
when someone close to you died.
Life is a beautiful thing
and so are you and I
arent you glad
You found such a sweet guy?.
I Love You Cassie.. And I Always Will
By : Duncan RB McCulloch.
7月4日 The Hottest F*kin GiRlHottest Girl Ever Right here :
cassie fawcett my girl.. my life.. my everything..
isnt she one hot girl?? :P :).. |
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